If anyone is reading this, welcome! I decided to try blogging to see if it could help me get my thoughts out there. So yes this is my very fist time writing a blog. I love to write, I always have, well for as far back as I can remember that is. So hopefully I can grab your attention!
I am told as a little girl my response to the ever so popular "what do you want to be when you grow up?" was that I wanted to be a Dallas Cowboys cheerleader and have 50 kids. Not sure how accurate that is, but apparently I always wanted a family, or at least to have kids. I started babysitting when I was 13 and I was a natural, I always was good with little ones. I just always knew one day I would be a mom, but it never truly clicked until I met my nephew Alex for the first time. He is a nephew from my ex-husband, but my nephew none the less. His parents, Shon & Liz came to visit us when he was about a week old. I was only 17 at the time, and not technically family. I remember just as clear as it was yesterday when Liz let me hold him and this little human nuzzled up to me and fell asleep on my chest, in turn I believe I may have dozed off as well. It was at that moment that I knew I was meant to be a mom, it was no longer just a life goal, it was a definite has to happen deal. Granted I was young so I didn't go out and pursue it then. The next time I got this feeling was when my sister had her son, my nephew, Preston. It was instant, I loved this little man and knew that one day I would have children.
Many years and some heartache later I have met Greg and we both want a family and best of all we are madly in love. After being together a year we are pregnant. We did have a very early miscarriage about 6 months prior so initially we had our fears. I still worry, but I am confident that the baby will be fine. I am currently 18 weeks. I have been pregnant before, but never got beyond 9 weeks. So here I am now, growing a little boy inside of me. I have been there for so many through pregnancies, always a little jealous that I just couldn't experience it. But I always knew that God has a plan, so I put my faith into that higher power. We have already decided that we are going to attempt a second child shortly after this little man joins us. I always thought I would be a younger mother, not that I am old now, but lets face it my clock is ticking.
I am excited to finally join the realm of mothers, I have my king, my true love, now we are going to have our prince. I am also nervous, though I have years of experience around children I just know it is going to be so different with my very own. I only hope these next 4 months or so pass quickly.
Now my pregnancy is not one of the normal ones, I have a condition called Degenerative Disc Disease, pretty self explanatory. I also have a couple bulging discs in my neck and low back as well as what the like to call a "unique shaped uterus" or bicornuate uterus, it is basically heart shaped. So we are currently trying to determine how the birthing process will be handled, c-section or normal delivery. Basically my spinal issue has me in almost constant pain, thankfully it has not been so bad since I became pregnant, I have not had to take any prescriptions, just the occasional Tylenol. So naturally Greg and I feel a c-section is the safest way to go since we can know what to expect as far as recovery, yet if I go the old fashioned way of pushing it could cause the disc to slip and cause much more harm to me. So yes I am scared and stressed. Thankfully I have Greg to support me, he works very hard to keep us on top so I am able to rest as I need to. I could not imaging doing this without him.
Well I can hear not only my dog snoring but also Greg so I should get to sleep. If anyone read this, thank you. Eventually you will know me as well as those closest to me. Haha. I think next I will tell you about my first children, my dogs. They are a huge part of my life.
Good night!
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